After losing his sight in his teens, Strictly Come Dancing star Chris McCausland faced up to his fears in his first open-mic gig.
“I’d tell my younger self, don’t be so embarrassed, don’t feel such shame. I lost most of my sight in my late teens and early 20s and with it the ability to see the computer monitor, to see in the dark,” he told the Big Issue.
“So I also lost the independence that gives you. At that age, you’ve got this desire to be normal. So there was a lot of denial. When you’re losing your sight gradually, there’s never a clear moment when you are forced to deal with it. I’d refuse to be associated with things connected to it, like, ‘I’m not using a stick, I’m going to pretend I can see.’ But you get into more trouble pretending there’s nothing wrong. It wasn’t until I lost my sight completely that I accepted it. Going through that embarrassment and shame toughened me up, though. Which lent itself well to doing stand-up.”
But Chris McCausland says dying on a comedy stage is not nearly as scary as dancing the Foxtrot on national television.
“If you were to ask me about the 10 most scary things I’ve ever done in my life, the top six would be the first six shows of Strictly,” he added. “It is, hands down, the most out of my comfort zone, nerve-wracking thing I’ve done.
Read Chris McCausland’s full letter to his younger self in this week’s magazine.