Kevin Rowland is not usually a man to look backwards. But the Dexys (previously Dexys Midnight Runners) singer and songwriter breaks the habit of a lifetime for The Big Issue’s Letter To My Younger Self this week.
What’s he like? Well, he is open, funny, honest, engaging – and still fighting off the lingering effects of Covid-19. But for more than an hour, Rowland talked about his long career, a difficult youth in which he was arrested four times before leaving school at 15, the advice about sex he wishes he’d been given and his troubled relationship with the success that followed iconic singles Geno and Come On Eileen hitting the top of the charts.
“I would like to revisit the original 1980s Dexys period and enjoy it more,” he says. “We made some good music but I’d tell my younger self just fucking chill, man. Have some fun. You’ve been on Top of the Pops, you’ve had a number one, in a couple of years you will have another one – so go and enjoy yourself.
“I enjoyed success… for a couple of weeks. You think it is gonna take away all your feelings of low self-esteem and it doesn’t,” he adds. “I started to feel like people could see through me, like they know I’m not worthy. I felt it even more after we’d had a number one single.
“Now there’s a phrase for it: imposter syndrome. But I didn’t know any phrases like that. These thoughts totally dominated me. It’s a ridiculous way to live. It’s exhausting.”
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